Meaningless ... ive been recently thinking much about the things happening around me lately. People changing, school stuff, trainings, mbjd, camp com, o's, silverboxes, practicing for jpsae auds, alot la. Most of it i think is settled la .. haha. Went to school passed to jq buchou e prince of tennis movie lol... haha played wif zhen yan and haaa yea if ure reading this =P 10000000000 years too early XD lol =X injured my right hand .. kinda stupid cause tried to catch the racket flying out of my hand and it hit my right hand... now my right hand also like wanna move damn pek cek lol
then went to church ... met glenn and luke den was like just watching some classical video band movie .. i was like super WOW ... hu hoo by it man... Then after they left i slept in the 3rd level until khai feng came. Then we had a convo all tt about really whether like i should be a cell leader. I know its like fun and all tt but i just somehow get the feeling im going to get con or something is going to come up and bite me in the ass. Not that i never tio before in church. But yeah. Church is meant to be a happy place to praise god, worship him and stuff but dunno why this one like really buang till liddat.. arrghh im ranting on and on .. i think dunno la no wonder my sis all also stop going liao =< . Dun mind me .. but somehow i see like people keep going up to the front always wanting to get prayed upon.. not saying that its bad but week after week the same people go. Most of the time asking to be prayed upon the issues that are somehow coincides wif the first issue. A bit like depriving others of their turn cause in a way, you'd just give off a vibe saying my issues are more important then you even if u unconciously do it. No names mentioned here so yes. Then i think its like if u actually believe in god, wont u like just pray to him and just have the blind faith that he would grant it. Of course absent faith like saying "oh god i see she hot .. I WANT HER AS MY GF" no it doesent work tt way. But hey just trust in him lor.
dunno yet if im supposed to be a cell leader. Cause in a way im a bit hyppy also *short form for hypocrite* i tell people stuff but behind sometimes im actually plotting like today pastor B asked if there was anyone who was like tt really buay tahan have to just raise man ... Dun care how people view it but i dont wanna lie to myself la so have to take this tiny steps one step at a time . YES ! i accomplished something !
SIDE TRACK
then for the what mbjd group ... macham like internal conflict all over the shop la .. i wont disclose openly what is going on .. because its only a need to know basis only and u my friend dont need to know unless ure very gam wif us. We dont need to kid ourselves la .. we all know we are having conflicts wif one another. Dont know why we always have to act so gum when infront of other people but when we are around each other we just like sian of each other totally la and just very emoey and very qian da all this kind of feelings. So confusing.
aahhhhh cannot stand it .. im gonna go for a run liao
nites ppl
me
arumugammuthuparapap!
