recapping memories

hey guys. today my second last day of my freedom b4 getting grounded.. no church etc.. im kinda sian but hey its for o lvls la .. must strive to achieve the goal which god has set for me . ( lol a common phrase for barker boys ) anyways, good news is .. i have started to start studying for my o's which is like nearly finished.. lol what can i say its cause of my good frens who gave me the basics and my good tutor ian haha.... dun tell him i said that .. he will just pile more work =x

starting of the year, i started out with a very unstable relation with practically everyone around me. All i had was the shaky bonds i made with people i met in camp.
but things turned out all right... there was japheth or !pheth someone who could just listen to me .. for me to like whine to haha but a terrible speaker XD.. no offence.. then there was weishan a wonderful and terrific girl who was patient with me and actually took so much time off to just accompany me and study ... whatever she said no matter what, i always heeded her advice and just changed wif it. There was mark, a strange little man who in a form of weird way was a good friend. So much so that i really forgot what it was about him . winnie, a livley little girl which usually is one of the tight bonds that just binds our group together and by doing so has suffered much teasing heh, very hardworking and her gentle soul can just touch anyone anywhere especially those of little children. Last but not least is elizabeth, a tame soul with a soothing voice which can just reach out to you and captivate you for the entire moment of her songs. It would basically leave u just wanting for more.

This was the initial group of us who started off, walking together and supporting each other through our hard times no matter what others may think or say. We each had our own different tasks ahead of us, for weishan it was to adjust to her new jc life and japheth his sciences, mark's was no easier though some may think less of it .., winnie and i had our o lvls to worry about. Through our struggles throughout the year, many new faces have been added to it. Somehow or rather, i feel that the initial group that once was only exists in a name. Problems start to arise.. its good that we are expanding in size and have many people socialising and just being added into the group, but perhaps just one too many i feel. Thus causing the main members to just seperate and lead their seperate lives. People change, u know it , i know it , everyone knows it. It is inevitable. Along the course of the year, some of them changed. But regardless what u go through , know this "YOU ARE NEVER ALONE !"

Through the times and ages,
my love for u will never fade.
though u may sit for the various papers,
that doesent mean you are behind or ahead.
Just because u are far away,
u know my feelings for u will always stay.
To live and to love is one thing u should do,
but do so with faith and god will see you through.
If u should feel that all is lost,
know that i am always here with u.
No matter what u do and no matter what the cost,
know this my friend, my brother, my sister,
that i will always love u.

take care god bless

Friends

"Friends".. The term commonly used to name a psychic link between two or more individuals. Friends are usually classified as the term that would help, care and be there in times of trouble and times of need. Friends are those that would help u through the darkest of times. Thank god for these special people.

However, the term friends can be used in many various ways. Friends that keep a mere accquaintance.(or however u spell it). Then there are the clicks (also known as a bunch of friends who hang out often). Then there are the hypocritical friends( friends whom u would just wish unfortunate incidents on).Finally you have ure best friends.. these are the ones u would treasure the most and really wish that nothing would ever come between the both of u. I am blessed for the fact that i have a few best friends.

However how would u know who is a real friend and who is a just another random psycho in the streets wandering and the killing intent of theirs, waiting constantly to just find the golden opportune moment and finish u off. These are the ones u shouldnt be looking out for, as they would usually be people one would tend to avoid no matter what. In actual fact, the real threat would be the ones who are your friends and always seem to be there for you. A cautionary and advisable phrase would be to keep your friends always at one arm's length. This strategy enables you to keep an eye over them and that you would never be betrayed. Seriously, my recent analysis shows that people that u meet and are friends with for long periods of time usually tend to turn out as hypocrites. Beware of them. Advisable to use any means necessary to squash them out of your life.

Then there are the good friends. The ones who would just hear you out and have a shoulder ever ready for u to lean or cry on. I am proud to announce that i have 3. 3 spectacular friends that i know can just count on and trust to be there ...

how about you .. take a look around u and just notice who are your real friends and who arent.

amen this is what i learnt ..
nite!

happy hari raya

well tuition just ended .. lol one thing about it is that it really helps me think through many things not just the basic maths and science .. but more in depth of whatever ... haha

somehow .. joel A.K.A fish .. when he drink soya bean he acts slightly niang XD proven by many .. lol but when i drink soya bean .. i become more pms .. lol wth ..
or maybe its just the stress of exams =\..besides .. every now and then nowadays i get random mood swings haha... must be tournament coming.. or just my plain randomness..

today hari raya went in the morning to like go and visit relatives etc etc.. collect green packets.. saw mi sis and e in laws haaa... everyone lookin good =p... den lynn turned on e disney channel lol . guess wad we watched.. high skool musical ... zzz

but ok la .. haha.. just to set the record straight .. no im not chinese... im singhalese... so ya its rude to ask ppl to go and die about their race... ok?! good

god bless ..

phonetics sux... english lessons suck man ...

lucky or just unlucky

ok so i started off having practical at bartley sec skool.. omg .. the students there are all cracking lame jokes half the time and really actually naive lol.. says much about mark eh XD..

anyways .. i am confident of the practical that i can at least get a good grade .. haha .. but the more i talk to mark the more he starts confusing me and like yea ... its not turning out good .. but hey .. i know i sure pass this one de lol .. its just how well i pass =P

then anyways .. i supposed to meet jappy at like 220 budden he came around my place at like 3 man ... damn i had to cut the grass already la arghh haha .. our destination in mind was PLAZA SING . Aim : catch toys look look walk walk ( our term for shopping eh weishan ) =P

then as we went off to ps .. i realised something .. dat i did the previous day was really dumb .. lol .. im not allowed to say haha .. anyways .. i went wif jap to go shan place and watch date movie .. lol she was like damn shag la haha .. anyways .. date movie was freaking sick uggghh *shivers at the thought* till now all still scared of food and therefore we finally realized that we will never see food in the same way again .. haha.. anyways .. i then went to training super late but hell who cares .. lol .. then i go there play a bit .. serve a bit ..

PIAK !!! my racket .. sianded .. all the dragon boat all suddenly stop shouting also lol.. everyone look sia.. i was like omg my poor darling !!! MY RACKET !! OH NO!!! WA LAU EH !! T_T ...so i borrowed jq racket .. but still feels like not the same .. haiz so i went to church to look for shan manly one and jap ..

sian tomorrow by hook or crook i have to get a racket for this sat or else is like what bp said .. GGXX U DIE sian... pray for me for my practical marks and my o lvls ok .. =p

@jap .. i want to go gai gai soon
@manly one .. ey i got the liquid liao le
@shan .. take care of ureself ya ..
@dwight .. ure t shirt ugly XD
@rachel .. thanks for waking me
@bird .. REMEMBER !!

ok god bless haha

temporary break

haha u guys.. no i cant post yet cause i havent thought of another story to write about yet XD
no point rushing me aloy and gene XD

anyways yep i been talking to certain ppl lately and it really feels refreshing to hear the stuff that they actually say and even invent methods of listening and sharing and helping others wif their problems..

yes and going back to school after a freakin long time just sux .. it like is so damn boring and tiring .. haha .. the lecturer was just droning on and on about dicipline in the class and the lecture hall .. she was just like .. i dunno.. talking to herself ?? my goodness .. she really isnt that bright now is she in human relations that part haa...

anyways waa the first day digital electronics .. i got a teacher wif a super cheeena accent .. haha so hard to understand .. but whew still can cope. anyways haha i blew up my ic transistor haha ... then its dnt 101 again .. she talking about dnt and its wonderful terms and benefits.. man someone needs to tape her up.. she macham like a jane choe.. open mouth once cannot stop liao lol

super typical of mg girls haha

anyways yeap i feel so cramped ... tml is o lvls practical lol !! i meeting paul later and i so need to mug until then haha .. cya

god bless =]
spenser =p

something i would like to share wif you all

There was once a man who lived in a big house of a big city of a well flourished country prospering in its golden age. The man had it all .. wealth, fame, friends, fun, laughter, parents who cared. But no matter what he had .. there was always something missing. It was as if it was a thorn in his side, a lingering stench of the idea that his life wasnt complete.

Desperate and troubled, the man turned to his friends for help. His friends sensing the man losing his mind, left him and took with them as much as they could from him. Once again the man felt nothing but greater pressure falling down on him. He needed to know the answer, he needed to know the truth behind things happening around him and what was his purpose. With all the doors of opportunities closing down on him, he started to feel a sense of helplessness.

Until one day, a bright shining light appeared.. Eager to find out what this great pillar of light was in his troubled times, he sought out to find it and where it was pointed. When he reached, he was dumbfounded. It had never occured to him the entire time that the answer was standing right there... just waiting to be discovered. It was as if he stumbled upon a miniture version of heaven itself.

Immediately the fire that he once lost within himself just came back. His adrenaline started pumping and pushing him on to find his place among the crowd. Alas when he finally reached there .. he saw a angel, what a spectacle. Never had he seen such an amazing sight. The angel reached out her hand and said :" you will never walk alone again .. i will walk with you no matter what ".

Immediately he grabbed the angel's hand. They then walked together for a long time and it seemed like heavenly bliss.. but that was not to be..

One day the angel told him that she had business to attend to and asked the man to carry on. No matter where he was she would be wherever he was, always walking with him. Days, Months, still the angel was no where to be seen and the trail of the road he once walked with the angel was starting to shroud in darkness and slowly catching up to him.... Where was this angel in the man's time of need, his darkest hour. Would the angel leave the man to fend for himself against this evil and shrouding darkness approaching him..

The man quickly started to run... Run Run Run ... It seemed like ages but still he was being chased by the impending darkness. Tired as he maybe, he kept on running constantly waiting for that angel to come for him. She never came. Feeling betrayed he leaks out tears of sadness. Nevertheless he keeps on running ... till the day she comes down from the heavens and carries him to safety in her warm arms ..

AMen to dat.. if u wanna find out more just ask me .. ill continue writing haa

why why why

ok so today i went out wif the gang and etc. we went to watch you me and dupree.. it was a really terrible show la for what i thought. why are owen wilson's shows all like that and so substandard... for one thing .. half the time it was about dupree screwing up and then patching things back.. everything is happily ever after.. man .. is there another plot he could use ?? had like hmm 3/4 a mind to just walk out of the cinema.

This was a movie i so regret paying my 8 bucks and even watching ... ahh wth once in a while going out wif em anyways. den i think eugene was kinda upset too about e rest of us which is really like understandable cause i was too .. wth la .. i feel so cheated ... fuck

pissed .. i actually missed training for this .. but hey thanks again joe.=]=]=]. u covered my ass lol i buy u drink next training .. haha and yea it sux to have an obstacle forever there that u really want to get rid off but u know u just cant . *inside joke*

btw sherwyn, muz, and zhiwei look so different la haaa.. long time since i saw those peeps.. zhiwei i nearly couldnt recgonise wifout his specs man haha ... i thought he was another acjc fren chris brought along to hang out.

my days are getting more and more fked up .. god help me . bless my pa.. amen

mentally challenged people

Sometimes in life we occur people who are mentally challenged or what we come to call nowadays as stupid. However, although this may seem mean to refer to someone as such, one might somehow find that he cannot be proven wrong at the very actions of the accused.

Rather you may also find that they themselves have a cape of illusionment telling them that they are the best and they are always right. This my friend is pure arrogance. The stench of that characteristic is enough to put off anyone who comes within a mile off to the accused with that similar charistaristic. In fact, recent survey by the author has also found this claim to be true and with much grounds. To put this in a short fact : " YES HE IS STUPID ". That my fellow readers is just the term described about the mentality of a certain person i know.

Coming to terms of the well known game tennis. Tennis is a game of endurance and will power and mental tactics. True enough it requires no skill to hit the ball hard. However it does take one certain amount of skill to control the ball at a certain pace which I myself have to say most have not accomplished. This is no excuse. The precision is sometimes not there during the off days of many individuals unless you are one from the ATP tours etc. However, in this case, i know of a certain individual who has proven himself a disgrace even to those who have picked up tennis as beginners. Not only publicly disgracing himself in front of the whole country of tennis players but still having the highest level of gall to brag about it. This we all know for certain as "the seeded one". Seriously just leave.

As a famous man once quoted : "a good craftsman never blames his tools". Yes, blame others for all the things u know are your fault. The lines, the nets, the rackets, the wind, the shoe, the court, etc. But deep down one may come to find that he himself is just lying to himself. Pity to the man that doesent.

In the words of my forefathers ... " VANISH !! U ARUMUGAMMUTHUPARAPAP !!

this is quoted from a great speaker spenser !! ^o^ A1 FOR ENGLISH LIAO AR !! WAHAHA

tired and random

im tired lol .. quite clear actually .. haha i managed to cover half my chem book liao hehe i still think im gonna die lol ...

anyways lets see.. tennis improved .. im still stuck on tt song ... cant get it out of my head .. oh haha joezer and gary are like gaga over my phone liao le .. lol !! gary even goin to the extent of sneaking behind me when i going home and jumping out saying PHONE OR LIFE ! lol haha XD

anyways fun bunch .. need to pack gg tan tock seng soon ... think they on the wireless early so at least i can go canteen and use com until visiting hours haaa
waa

CMON !!

THE END :D

today was the last week of the season of worship month haha :D it was somewhat boring and yet not bad la ...

for the starting part the guy called everyone up but den he sang and everyone arnd me was like ... bleugh bleugh .. dunno why got ppl actually go up.. or maybe is just me haha...

den later when he started to ask everyone to sit down and he started singing i was watching then i blanked out and i just fell asleep haha it was simply too damn boring ... no offense though. Moreover haha selwyn birthday .. den we tau pok him :D lol too bad got ppl missing or else more fun lor =[

yes and tomorrow is the silver boxes haha FUN FUN FUN wif e lil ginas :D

hehe oh wells at least i shikai for chemistry liao and amaths .. now need to shikai for physics den later bankai for all 3 COME ON !!

god bless haha